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Pictures aren't always the best at describing feelings. Words can sometimes be a really good substitute. Many of you know that love of my life is often Mia. Not his fault. Sometimes I just need someone to confide in. My mom's usually a pretty good substitute, but she's not answering. I played the piano today in order to extract some emotion. Which is pretty phenomenal considering I'd just been at the church practicing organ for over an hour. I play the piano often, but not usually with the intent of expressing feelings. Prokofiev's Suggestion Diabolique is an awesome expression of how I was feeling inside. I finished it off with a Chopin Nocturne op.72 no.1 I'm surprisingly feeling better. What do you do? Hit a pillow? I hope I'm brave enough for book club tonight. I don't know if I want to cry any more today. Bottom line. I miss him.

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Sarah said…
I understand the pain and frustration Aubs. You can call me if you need to!
9:21 PM, March 08, 2012
Matthew and Lindsey said…
:( I am so sorry. If you moved back to Vegas then we could hang out. REmember second year of dental school-semester before the boards? Ugh. I am sure that it does not hold a candle to his residency but you were so strong then that I am sure you can do it noW Best of luck!
8:36 PM, March 13, 2012
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